a strange taste

i am
once more
ajar
askew
depression
i try it out
roll it on my tongue
testing my palate
tasting
thinking
not quite it
too alive
alert
too feeling
feeling stuck
stagnant
disconnected
brain body
slipping
missing
desire is there but
stalled
stopped
hopeful
powerless
no breakthrough today but
optimism for tomorrow
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a strange taste, 4.20.2024

minor magic

dusk turning to
peaceful night
only time i can drag myself
out for a walk
sometimes
triggered
muscle memory of
midnight jaunts
throughout my ages
late night scampering on
a golf course that was so much more
rolling hills that were
countless scenes
bringing back memories of
childhood dreams
arms
flung wide
blowing on a dandelion puff
remembering how all i wanted
was to start running and then i’d
fly
float
into the sky
but also knowing my
minor magic
of how i can spin
dizzily
down a staircase
hopping railings
floating down
doing the impossible
but for me it’s
possible
dancing on ledges
ignoring that innate fear
respect of heights
walking running
creating my own liminal spaces
dancing close to edges

(i’m telling you
minor magic
we all have it
we all had it
as kids but
trust me:
it’s not gone
not for good
not forever)
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minor magic, 4.19.2024

spring

fleeting
ephemeral
fragrant aromas waft on still chilled breezes
fresh life bursting all around
buds blooming
the young calves frolicking in the fields
the sun
prodding us all like too-early sunflowers
to angle our faces up
up
up toward its warmth
a slow smile spreading
a fresh sense of primal hope
flooding our bones

(often
in my mountain state existence
to be doused with a whirlwind of snow
that does nothing
but make me laugh
and shake my head
because life is
delightfully
predictably
unpredictable)
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spring, 4.8.2024

First Quarter Style: 2024

Only two outfits that I bothered to try to get photos for. Quite possibly a subtle sign I’m unhappy with the current body composition …

Worn to date night seeing Six the Musical.

Shawl: … Target, probably?
Necklace: Kate Spade
Dress: Draper James
Tights: A New Day (Target)
Boots: JustFab Online

Worn to Clue on Stage.

Earrings: probably True Love Crystals
Sweater: JustFab Online
Bracelets: MantraBand, Miss T Creations
Skirt: Banana Republic
Shoes: JustFab Online